This will be my outlet for the next 365 days. I guess you could say i am running a social experiment.
I couldn't be happier. So why is there that little part of me that wants my man back? I wanted out of the relationship. Kinda. I wanted him. I love him. Always have always will. Forever. He was and is the love of my life. I have not seen him since we broke up. Someone … Continue reading Love and Sex
Several weeks ago, my pastor talked about praying for something over and over and over. He challenged us to pick something to pray for, for 6 months. I chose to pray that God would get me out of the relationship I was in. It was damaging me and I knew it. At the same time, … Continue reading free to be me
Got a call from my lawyer yesterday... She said... "Marissa... Stop by my office and get this paperwork, then go get your kids" Wow. Best day of my life, besides the day my step dad adopted me. I sped down the highway at 85 for 2 hours. It somehow felt like 5 mins but … Continue reading Shock
Well, I am now single. Bittersweet. It's a relief in one hand. On the other it really has my head fucked up. I don't understand why me n work so hard to win your trust and then one day they are out to hurt you as badly as they can over some petty bullshit. Men … Continue reading Finally
layin in bed... I worked for my job and my business today. I'm tired. Working a noon to 11p.m. Shift tomorrow too. I have so much on my mind though, and I ain't been sleeping hardly at all.
Back at square one. Why? I don't know? Maybe I'm just stupid.here I am, one week since I last wrote and once again I feel like a failure. I can't bring myself to listen to Christian music even... Guilt. I'm not praying, I am not reading my Bible... I am making one wrong decision after … Continue reading Starting over
I really do need to go back to writing every day instead of once a week, because there is so much going on. There is so much I am learning. In the span of a week, I can go from spiritually doing amazing, physically feeling perfect, and mentally alive to the extreme opposite and back … Continue reading